pro and cons

Hi! Finally i'm here after such a long hiatus. Honestly, i was going to post about my recent trip to Aceh, i even typed half of it already, but yeah hahahahaha pls excuse my indolence.

Today, i'm gonna talk about social media. Some people think social media ruins one's real life. It makes people become awkward while communicating in real life. Direct speeches and convos become shorter or less intense, etc. But for me, social media is beneficial.

Friendster was my gate to the world of social networking. I still remember, we were still in sec 1. My used-to-be bestie and i would sneak out to internet cafe just to access our friendster page. (Our phones can't access internet back then in that era). Just imagine how possessed we were, Friendster while everyone else played the online game called Audition. Hahahaha so imbecile eh.

After the friendster raid, here came something more interesting called Facebook. It was 2009 when i first joined facebook. The alay frenzy was spreading like virus. Almost everyone typ3s l4iK 7h1s on their status and comments. And not to mention those shameless edited selfies. Ergh if you happen to embarrass someone, just stalk their 2009 or 2010 posts, so hilarious i swear!

Twitter. My english savior.
My english skills were foul and mortifying. No lies. I didn't attend any english courses or tuition or anything you name it. I used to tweet or write anything using indonesian. Sooo one day, one of my classmates tweeted sth like "Do you bla bla bla", so i absentmindedly replied, "Yes, i am." Then that person replied me telling that my english was so bad. From that moment on, i solemnly promised to myself to improve my english. I tried to tweet using english as often as possible. I followed a lot of english quote acc and tried to translate the quotes. Yes, hardwork never betrays. Slowly but sure, my english was finally decent. My english became even better when i had the courage to read english novels. Voilá! Here i am. Soooooo grateful that Twitter was invented or else my blog must be still in indonesian.

I was so curious about Instagram, when my classmates connected instagram to twitter. But instagram was only available in iOS devices back then. Once instagram announced that it was finally available on android, i was ecstatic! After going thru some process, i finally got an android tablet. (I told you alrd on earlier post). Instagram opened my eyes, that the world is actually so vast and beautiful. I learned a lot things from instagram too. My hobby of editing photos is so influenced by instagram too! I have a dream to produce pics like how those travel bloggers do, someday! I feel like having different perspective on seeing things, yeah thanks to instagram. It really inspires me a lot.

I actually still own other socmed accounts, but they tell no tale lol. Pinterest (it inspires me too!), Path, ask.fm, (line, bbm and skype don't count right? Hahaha)

Though i told you socmed is beneficial, it also has negative impacts. Like i become so attached to internet, that one day without internet could make me dying. Nomophobia. :(

So till next time maybe. :)

blessed 18

November 10 is the day i always look forward to each year. I don't know about you, but birthdays are important to me and i have expectation that it ought to be a good one every year. Almost all of my birthdays were niceee, gratefully, and thank people around me for always making it nice. This year's november 10 was awesome.

Birthday macarons, because birthday cakes are too mainstream! Besides this little french treats have lots of flavors and it feels so festive! :p

At midnight, he surprised me, i mean really surprised me with his and his friends' (and actually mine) video call. It was sooo funny and i forgot to screenshot, poor me. I really appreciate all his efforts to make my birthday an awesome one, from taking me to have early birthday dinner, personally giving me early birthday present, arranging a group video call though i know you're sooo busy and such. I know 'thank you' is always not enough.

Shortly after that, i surprised my best friends with a fact. They went frantic and blame me for not telling them earlier. Hahahaah sorry but it was funny anyway, rite? Later, my best friend posted a used-to-be-controversial pic of me and him on ig. That's when everyone knew the fact and i was flooded with questions. Well, funny to surprise people on your birthday! Teehee. 

Oh i also got a package from depok and probably a postcard from osaka (still on the way though). Thank you! Long distance friendships are cute! Can't wait to reunite with my best pals in december!! I miss you guys so bad already.

On november 11, my pharmacy friends surprised me with a birthday cake! It was surprising because i though they would be celebrating it on monday, but they didn't. The distraction was cool and i never saw it coming! Thank you guyssss. 

One word to describe my 17: transformation. I really felt myself changed a lot during that year. Also, there were a lot of things changed! Thankfully, the changes were leading to positive way. My 17 was one of the best years in my life, if not the best. I love you guys for making my life seem easier to deal with. 

One of the lessons my 17 has taught me, be true of who you are, don't try to alter yourself for anyone else because when you did, you lose the right person, and worse, you lose yourself. Everyone is born uniquely, and if you are bold, keep being bold and i promise you someone would come along and love you for who you are. 

"Some people lose diamonds in search of stones." Be thankful of everything given to you and make the best out of it! Don't ever take people for granted. :) 

ask questions and what?

truth to be told, i used to hate this not-so-new social media called ask.fm. this socmed literally is full of nosy people. no kidding. i even told my bestie that i wasn't going to be influenced by anyone to make an account there. but everything changed when i saw my pharmacy friends getting so bombarded by ask.fm euphoria. i became curious about what this socmed could do, thus, i made an account. btw my ask.fm id is veronicaphing, and yes you are welcome to ask me questions. tadaaaa. at first, it was indeed fun. people asked me questions about my opinions about themselves and vice versa. but, in the end i think it's so boring. (it's only been 2 days lol.) boredom level vero.

but i am not saying that ask.fm is totally useless. i was beyond touched and exhilarated to know that my bestie is indeed my real bestie. she literally knows me inside and outside. there were some ridiculous high school moments which i almost forgot but she still remembers those. blessed for having somebody so nice as my best friend. i undoubtedly treasure our friendship.

anyway i was highly criticized as an absentminded person. previously, i always picture myself as a nosy and noisy person towards my close friends. but the truth, jane said i lacked at giving attention towards her that surprisingly made her feel like i was not her friend. omg. i was really not aware since when i developed this trait. i am so sorry for being trashy.

my new friends also told me their first impressions on me. most of them said i was so silent. hahahahhahaha seriously, i was never pictured as a calm and taciturn person in my entire life. well, you guys really need to cope with my talkativeness once we are closer.

happy halloween! they say it's the 666th time halloween falls on friday and the next one would be in 2025. anw, tmr is november already and i am so excited! teehee bye!

yay or nay?

Yep, feeling grateful! Tho i know we were the last generation whose photos of us weren't taken using mobile phones. Who cares. I still remember playing mamasak (cooking) using plants as the ingredients with neighbors. I still remember i used to go to neighbor's home so that we could play dokter-dokteran (doctors and nurses) using stuffed animals as our patients. Playing dramas as fruit sellers using monopoly fake money. Playing congkak with cousins. Tag and hide-and-seek almost every day! And soooo many more. My childhood was pretty tho i was a bit rebellious lol. 

I wonder what kids nowadays would tell their future kids about their childhood. Oh maybe, they would say: hey kid, you know what. Mommy used to have 1760 followers including Justin Bieber on twitter, my ig photo was liked by 7802 people, i had 27605 different selfie poses on iphone, your grandparents bought me iPad, iPad mini, iPad air, iPhone 5, iPhone 6, MacBook Air, MacBook Pro, Galaxy S5, Note4, Xbox 360, PS 4, blablablabla. My favorite song was Anaconda by Nicki Minaj (eww). My favorite tv show was Silet! And i loved Ahmad Dhani LOL. Just kidding :) Technology ruins you. Unobtrusively. And i am so ruined that i won't go a day without my phone huhuhuhu

Till next time! xx

timeline

I looked back to my past loaded with so many bitter-sweet memories. I try to picture myself as an infant through series of photos bcs obviously i forgot how it felt to be a baby (people say that everyone has minor amnesia, which means we can't remember anything related to the first 2 years of our lives). How easy it was to be an infant and cute toddler because all you did was waking up to loving parents, drinking milk, crying, sleeping and the cycle went on. But it seemed like an invisible stage of your life bcs we didn't have any vision about our infant and toddler life. Well, it obviously was not my favorite stage of life. 

Subsequently, we reached our preschool years. I didn't remember much. Only the joy i had along with my fellow friend and cousin when it was recess time, bcs we would spend it running and playing around school yard plus seeking for caterpillars (YEP! We were naughty). Seems like it was the only memory i had lol. 

My primary school years were mediocre. I still recalled i was that smart and self-centered girl. I used to think that i am the best and everyone else is a step behind me (here's the dirty little secret, i always got 2nd rank, only got 1st once). My friends were little at class, yea because of my selfishness. But i changed, didn't i? 

Junior high school. Hmm the years when all your hormones show off. I did so many embarrassing things during those years. Having your first crush, texting with alien language (re: alay), editing your selfies with oh-my-God-why filters, stickers, texts (oh you still could find those embarrassing photos, just type 'veronicaphing' on google photos.) Jhs 3 was when i found out who i really was and the real meaning of friendship.

Senior high school. The most colorful phase of my life. OMG I WANNA GO BACK (or not). Despite the distressing exams, annoying teachers, endless assignments, childish dramas and huge burden, the fun parts paid it off. Seriously, i had no regret and i sincerely thank myself for having fun (while maintaning nice scores [except bloody math]). I am so so sooo grateful that i met a bunch of nice people whom i can always count on. Without them, my life would be in monochrome. Though we are now separated into different parts of the world, i have huge faith that we will meet again! Missing each one of you so badddddd alrd. 

Here's what i am trying to say. I had a lot of stupid and embarrassing experience, but who cares? It's over! No matter how notorious or preposterous you are, soon, all of em will be your past. Everything will pass and you're gonna be alright. Let us strive to be a better person and let time heal what's incurable. Don't ever give up. You can't change your past. Make the best of your present. Future is still a mystery yet it brings hope. :)

P.S. i'm starting my college life technically tomorrow (well, it's sunday already). Tbh i am not excited. More like nervous.
P.P.S. my longest holiday in my life is about to be over. Frankly, so many things happened during my holiday (so glad). And it's the least boring holiday ever!
P.P.P.S. tonight is my last night as a night owl. I am sooooo gonna miss being night owl, especially spending those nights with the right person. Well, say hello to veronica, the early bird!
P.P.P.P.S. seems like i need to stop this p.s. thingy. Thank you for spending your few minutes reading this post. Much love! xxxx

a tough yet bright comet

I know i should have my spirits up at least on my first semester of college. But somehow seniors' words are haunting me. Endless assignments, very packed schedule, strange environment, brand new people, hectic days, sleepless nights, and even stupid and unreasonable rules. Well, at least i don't meet calculus anymore. *trying to cheer myself up* Goodbye to my easy and lazy days :') i miss high school so much, because even when the days were hard, i somehow feel so much less burdened. And much happier.

now the blind monkey

Nobody could predict the future. Even when you were sure something was gonna happen, but in the end it didn't. Well, who to blame but your lame expectations? 

Distance sucks in the way it never has. Now it's crystal clear that distance could change everything, even good friendship. "Life goes on, vero, you gotta move on.", says someone who's tryna to grasp what kind of crap is going on. 

This may look like a pathetic dandelion, but actually it never is pathetic. Funny not funny.