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I don't care if you reckon my life is dramatic or boring or childish or whatsoever. I am really contented for what I am and what I have now. Though of course everyone always wants more, but still, I am glad :)

I used to be afraid to know what people thought about me. Like, I really cared about their bad remarks about me and loathed knowing someone else hated me. But now, I just don't care about those lousy fake people. I am just gonna stick to my unpretentious and real friends. I cannot be more ecstatic to have such awesome and lunatic buddies!

Sooo, recently my friends challenged me to behave more maturely for mere one day. (Lol yeah, I realize ok, though I am 17 soon, but my attitudes are a little bit immature). I accepted the absurd challenge insouciantly.
D-day! I changed into a placid and calm person. I spoke calmly. I giggled womanly. I threw no joke. And I was not loud! Eminently not my true self! Well they were surprised. (I figured out that little people knew about my one-day transformation which is good, bcs it was embarrassing ya know!). They said I was unnatural and stiff. Well of course I couldn't be natural. It was not me, obviously I couldn't be comfortable, rite?
A lesson learned: be yourself! :) you are unique and awesome in your own way.

I always love going hangout with my buddies. Drops of excitement always pumps into our blood and loudness always follows. :D

¡Buenas noches mis amigos!

adrenaline

¡Hola!

Our first lesson was mandarin, and we had quiz. Lol I didn't study it at all last night, so yeah.. Luckily the questions weren't so hard, so I could finish it successfully. Then, chemistry lesson, no peculiar things happened. Next, bio lesson. Woah, perhaps I was beginning to build anger since bio lesson. Someone, idk intentionally or unintentionally asked and commanded me rudely. I was so upset. Yeah, but I still had stock of forbearance. So okay, though I didn't deserve to be treated like that bcs I never talked that rudely towards anybody, even a stranger. Okay, now lips are closed, I don't wanna trigger more problems by letting you know the real situation :x Next, religion, we watched some nice videos. Last one, physical education. We also had exam. Actually the exam was fine, and I got 95 which weren't a reason why I was so upset later on. Okay, ready for the climax? The test was over. Jane and I were ravenous already and our tummy really needed to be refilled. So we headed to block A canteen to grab some food. There were crowd of people there. At first, I ignored them and I went to buy food. The situation got more intense and wild. I knew it was not my business. But I couldn't help but stared at them. Those stupid junior high were fighting. Judging from their posture, like junior 1 or 2. Like seriously? You fought in public?! Everything was so messed up and loud and uncontrolled. I was so confused. Unexpectedly, I shouted at them. With everyone's eyes staring directly at me. I shouted, "Woi, lu lang si bo nao hyo?" Translation: "Eh, you guys have no brains huh?" P.S. They are all strangers, I even haven't met them once. OMG I was so shocked. I myself also didn't know how those words spurted from my mouth. Maybe it's because surge of adrenaline consumed my whole body that I sputtered at them. Then after that, as if I was a psycho and invisible they continued fighting. This time I couldn't hold back the anger. I stared them with the most vicious eyes I could manage and I said, "woi lu lang kira ane hebat liao hyo sio phak khi kantin?" Translation: "Eh, do you think it's cool to fight at canteen?" Then jane told me to calm down and told BP. My hands were trembling and my head was spinning. I really couldn't accept the fact that I exposed my anger in public. Really embarrassing. Another 'first'. I told my friends that I shouted at canteen and they said it was so unbelievable, and they regretted that they missed the opportunity to witness my anger. LOL. Jane was so lucky to witness such rare emotion of mine. :P *mercurial mood swings*

Btw my friends and I are recently study spanish autodidactically. Lol though today is only the second day of learning spanish teehee. It's really more fun to study something new along with your friends, it motivates you a lot! :D Believe me, if you say english is difficult, español is ten times as difficult as inglés is.

¡Buenas noches! ;)

I laugh hard. I play hard. I joke a lot. I am who I am. It's up to you to accept me or like me or whatever you name it. I don't really care. I am fed up with facade of ppl. As long as I still have time, I am gonna rock my final high school year with laughter, sweet memories and craziness. Don't be so judgmental and hold back your stares bcs we don't give a damn :)


P.S. you are such an infuriating cutie pie.

flee

I guess I begin deserting my blog all over again. Welllll, it looks like my old habit of abandoning blog visits me again hehe. Imma such a bad blogger. Btw, it's late midnight or maybe veryyy early morning now, and I feel like chattering. A lot.

Ya know, ups and downs fill my life recently. It's kinda perplexing that something bad actually has its bright side, vice versa. Well, of course after getting through thorough self introspection that everything happens for a reason, or a reason behind it, or whatever else. Like for example, my monthly exams scores were disastrous that I almost shed tears. Thankfully, I did NOT. My scores were really so bad, like the worst I've ever scored. EVER. I am eminently disappointed with myself. But who else to blame, but myself? Thank God, I learned how to deal with predicament. I was so surly and totally mute for couple of hours after getting the stupid result. (Which I think is normal to be sad). Then I realized, why was I be reacting this way? Not all things happened just the way you wanted it to be. Be realistic. It's ok to be sad, as long as you don't cross the limit. Although you cried until your tear glands explode, it won't change the fact. You've got some more chances. Ok, time to move on. After that totally-mute-and-do-not-disturb-me mood shifted, here I am, the laughingstock and non-stop chattering vero return from the oblivionland. Yeah, even though my scores were as bad as hell, but i know my close friends are so nice to me. They comfort me. Yeah, everything is not entirely bad, right?

I guess August has been the most dramatic month of the year. Loads of things happened. Some of them are vicious. Some are dreamy. Some are soothing. Some are unfathomable. And now that August is over, say hello to September! :)

the slacker is slacking

Hello readers! I am so sorry for deserting this blog for months. Slackness was consuming my whole body till I didn't have any energy to update blog jk hehe! Sooooo, here I am, finally got nothing else to do and start typing nonsenses.

As you guys know, I still have a few months away before graduating from high school. I don't know whether I should be gleeful or remorse or exasperated. I remember when I was a little girl, granny used to say that I ought to study hard and let each year pass quickly and finally graduate from school and start earning money. I used to be sooooo excited about being a grown-up. It means unlimited freedom and infinite happiness. As primary school student I was not joyful. I got little friends and didn't get freedom as a little girl deserved. My secondary years were not the most gratifying ones. Even though I was blessed by having a few good friends, I don't live my life to the fullest. Mom used to be so protective and didn't let me go to malls to hangout with friends (ikr, it's pathetic). It's worsened by some drama queens who were so eager to make problems with me. Ok, forget it. I have ecstatics years in high school. Yeah, I am now understand why people say high school years are the most beautiful. Everyone's so fine, full of laughters, and enjoying life, though we need to strive to keep up with tough lessons. I am so blessed that I find some great and warm-hearted buddies I can count on. High school is cool. I can't believe in a few months, it's over. Well, enjoy when it lasts.

I am going to padang to spend holidays. Everyone gives me why-do-you-go-to-padang-it-is-uncool look when I told them. Well...

a memorable farewell party

The last 3 days had been amazing for me. We (Samto, Angeline, Adriana, Shelly, Raymond, Cindy L, Jane, Delfina, Nelson, Catherine, Andy, David unyu, Devin, and I) went to brastagi to have a little farewell party for samto. Hmm idk how to start. I guess this is going to be a longgggg post. Close this tab if you are busy lol :p

Day 1 (01/06/2013)
Everyone agreed to gather at shelly's house, umm not her house specifically, her kos. I was the first one to arrive. Shelly and I had our meal while waiting for others. Then, one by one arrived at shelly's kos. We originally decided that everyone ought to arrive by 12. But eventually we set off at 1 pm because some are 'ngaret'. ini medan, bung! Kalo ga ada yang ngaret, bukan medan namanya. Lol i was just joking, no offense ya hehehe. We eventually arrived at brastagi after 2,5 hours of non-stop gossiping, ho pua ft sip pun was our topic teehee. We took some photos there. After that, we went to the only one traditional market to buy some fruits. I never imagined how it was to buy things and bargain prices with my pals at a traditional market. Lol so funny. We bought some sunkists, oranges and passion fruits. We also bought bracelets for each of us, so that every time we saw that bracelet, we could remember our trip that day.

After buying things, we bought food at resto asia, and the headed back to villa. After having our shower, we had our meal.

Mouthful of french fries

Then, after everyone's ready, we were playing games, chatting, incessant gossiping, laughing till we drop, and the last session was heart-to-heart talks with samto. We confessed everything related to samto. Everyone was so touching and tear-jerking. Most of us even cried, a lot. I am an emotional person, but idk what happened to me that night, i couldn't cry even though my heart was so lugubrious. I only shed one or two tears, hmm. We 'buka-bukaan' (throw away you dirty mind, i mean we share secrets, hmm) until 2 am. We slept soundly after that hahahaha.

Day 2 (02/06/2013)
Rise and shine! Kinda embarrassing, i was the 13th person to wake up. I told jane to wake me up but she didn't -_- we showered, had breakfast, blablabla and then had a long photo shoot at balcony. Samto was leaving that day, so we had loads of photos with him.

Somebody tell me how to look nice on photos! -.-

The clock showed 10.38, it's time for samto to bid farewell with us. Lol don't be serious, he's really leaving in august, so we can still meet him haha. We went to the only amusement park at brastagi, mikie holiday shortly after that. Mikie was so crowded that day, so we had to queue for some minutes. My adrenaline was produced a little bit much, so i dare to ride all machines, even the extreme ones, but T-rex. T-rex is seriously too extreme, i afraid i would feel nauseous. We had so much fun that day. The day was getting dark and foggy, so we left mikie.

Omg look at my hair. I was like struck by high voltage electricity hahahaha!

We went back to villa, rode bicycle and then got ready for dinnertime. We had our dinner at warung kaki lima along jalan jamin ginting. I never ate at there with my family, so it's funny to eat there with friends. On our way back to villa, someone suddenly said that people only check in on foursquare if they are going to prestigious places, what if we check in at low class places? Lol, we did. We checked in at Warung Muslim Anugrah and Bandrek Abi Cayank Ummie. We ate at warung anugrah, but we even didn't know the existence of that alay bandrek stall, someone coincidentally found this on 4sq and told us. Lol we laughed till our stomach ached! Hehehe. We walked around the complex. We were so crazy that time, ahh very memorable. We were singing songs, telling jokes, etcetc. Coincidentally, ia 10 students were staying at the same complex, so we visited their villa. Daebak 35 ppl in one villa, how did they manage to get shower, someone else would brb rite? We were like soooo sksd, luckily they don't mind it and they were so amiable towards us. We even had a group photo with them. 

As usual, we chatted until midnight then had our beautiful sleep, alay wkwk.

Day 3 (03/06/2013)
Clock ticks fast, 2 days time elapse in a blink of an eye. We were going home that day. It's 06.34 in the morning, i was the 3rd to wake up yeayy, lol though i slept again for 1,5 hours and woke up at 8 :p We had breakfast, showered, and then packed our stuff. We went to villa clubhouse to take photos.

Just like going back to childhood :D

We went to pasar brastagi again to buy home some fruits. I bought 2 kg of passion fruits lolol. We headed to Taman Alam Lumbini afterwards. We prayed and had a walk there. We walked to the top and found some gym-like stuffs so we rode them. We also saw a big and eye-catching playground there. We saw no securities, so we stepped inside and played like a crazy one. Then suddenly the security officer showed up and pointed at us, omg what an epic embarrassment. Finally we headed to the last destination before going back to medan, The Hill Hotel & Resort. The hotel was so natural and had many animals, artificial lake and beautiful gazebos. We had our lunch there. Even though the meal wasn't cheap, but the taste was worth it. Nomnom. We took several photos there hihihihi. The sky cried and was getting dark, so we had better went back to medan.

Congratulations for having finished reading this tedious blog post. I'm just writing something i can read and rewind our memories later when we are adults.

Girls from left: Delfina, Jane, Catherine, Veronica, Cindy L, Angeline, Adriana, Shelly
Fellas from left: Andy, Devin, Raymond, Nelson, David, Samto

Massive thanks to:
Adriana Salim for providing us villa, transportation and everything else. Maybe this trip would not be as successful as we had if there were no you and your kakak and your om supir.

Shelly Triana for arranging this trip so well that we had abundant snacks and food and comfy trip! I miss your sexy voice lolololol

Angeline Josethang for sharing the idea of throwing a farewell party at brastagi. I am so happy that you recommend brastagi, not sun plaza or other mainstream places in town. Hahahahaha

Samto Wongso for being our main star of the trip! Hihihihi

David unyu for providing us transportation and driver!

And Cindy Liantono, Jane Tarmiya, Raymond Harris, Catherine Ng, Nelson AK, Delfina, Devin Xu, and Andy Wijaya for making this trip flawless. You guys had made me understood the real meaning of friendship. I love you guys to the bones. Thank you!!

Byeeeeeeee!! Have a nice summer holiday guys!

morose + moronic = me

Erghhhhh I feel like pouring out my thoughts on twitter but twitter is very public and everyone will immediately comment on it and I will be ashamed. Blah blah blah. Don't bother to read because I write nonsense here. :)

Seriously I am very fed up now. I feel like burning all my maths books, papers and every single thing related to maths. I've tried so hard to like this subject but the more I tried, the more I got frustrated. So today was maths exam. My friend told me that the questions would be easy to solve and 80% of the questions were taken from pm. He also told me that plus class students wouldn't fail it. Plus students who score lower than 90 are considered idiotic (paice in hokkian) and regular students who score lower than 75 are idiotic. HAHA. Eh not funny K? I was so happy and thankful that time. I thought, "Wow this is my last chance to cover up my previous score. Gotta do my best." Here comes the monster day. Having arrived at school and gathered at canteen as usual with classmates, my confident level drastically dropped, idk why. I became a worrywart and I started imagining that I'd fail the test. During the test, I could solve most of the questions easily. Yes ofc I got some troubles solving some hardcore questions. But at least I was confident and sure that this time I wouldn't fail. Test was over and we checked our answers with friends. How disappointing, I chose so many wrong answers. Idk what struck me on exam room til I made so manyyyy mistakes ergh, I am paice kuadrat! Everyone's happy today, esp my classmates. They passed maths exam with flying colours, oh how envy :(

I'm just unable to understand myself. The previous maths test was also very easy, but I was so careless and made dumb mistakes. This time also. What's up with me seriously? Am I that dumb? Stressed out. Ok I just don't want to care about it now. I really wanna graduate from high school soon and bid farewell to maths like for good. I am so not gonna take any major related to maths later on uni!

Being told to love maths is like telling a dolphin to climb the highest mountain. Lol sounds exaggerating, a lot.

Anyway...............................
3 days left and we will be having farewell party with my buddies somewhere out from town! Woohoooooooo, can't wait xx