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finally, it's the last day of 2012. it's new year's eve! *cheers* hmm i'm not gonna make any resolution for this year because i always end up forgetting my resolution (even sometimes i forgot my resolutions already on march). ehm. i just wish that in this new year, i become a better person, in every aspect indeed. :D

since today is new year's eve, we planned to have some barbeque and playing fireworks with my cousins at my granny's house. tonight is gonna be a good night. i love playing with children :D teehee

i'm afraid i cannot blogging tomorrow, so i wish u a happy new year 2013! :D

an epic 'doomsday' (?)

They said 21/12/12 was a doomsday, well, it was not for me. 21/12/12 is obviously the day which brings happiness to me. Today was really something :p

So, today we had maths exam. As you you know, the subject that i hate the most is MATHEMATICS. It's like a nightmare for me. My previous scores for maths were really low which means i have to put more effort to cover up my bad scores. The day before exam, i almost cried because of maths. Trigonometry is the way too complicated for me. Seriously. I even had an agreement to myself, if my score is above 75, i will laugh for 5 mins non-stop in front of my friends. It might sound very silly, i know. So last night i kept motivating myself that i can do it. Yea, sometimes self-confidence is crucially needed and i proved it today. Although i didn't get perfect score, but i was happier than having a perfect score for another subject. I was really thankful and one word: elated.

After exam, since today was the last day of torturing exam, we (Jane, Jevlin, Delfina, Angeline, Wenderlin, Samto, Devin, Malvin, Andy and i) planned to go chilling out at thamrin plaza. We had lunch at QQ and went to cinema to watch Silent Hill 2. The movie was quite flat and i don't like it. I still prefer The Possession though. After the cinema, we went to The Haunted Mansion (lol ane lebay :p) rumah hantu which takes Titanic Ghosts as the theme. LOL it was so ridiculous because when we got inside, we only saw a pirate ghost and the rest are local ghosts, like pocong, kuntilanak, etc. This rumah hantu was really congested. We waited like 20 mins to queue. When we were on the queue, we planned some strategies like don't scream 'aaaaa' when you're scared, but yell 'baca pre-U yieeaakk' instead. Holding hands tightly so that you couldn't get lost (?) and do not push each other and don't run. Lolll. The track is quite long and dark and full of ghosts who will chase on you. It was fun after all. hahahaha!

So, here comes my holidayyyy. But i haven't thought of sth worth to do on holiday. Hmmmmms. Adios, have a nice holiday guys :D

the hangout

today, i went to sun plaza with my singaporean cousin. we watched 'the possession' at sun 21. the movie was so scary and nice. then, we talked about like almost everything. she told me about her life in singapore and i just found out that singaporean chinese teenagers and medanese chinese teenagers have complete different styles. for example:
singaporean teenagers wear casual outfits, what i mean by casual is they never wear high-heels and dress at malls. they only wear them on special occasion like parties. at malls, they only wear t-shirts, jeans with flip-flop or sneakers, and less make-up. some (i said some, not all :p) of medanese teenagers (i am excluded :P) wear high-heels, u-can-see shirts, hot-pants, mini-skirt, blazer, boots, dress, make-ups, a hand bag on left hand, and a gadget (like iPad) on right hand. she told me that medanese teenagers are too 'over'. well, i agree. 

singaporean teenagers are really liberal. it's like they are free to go out at night and go home at almost midnight. moreover, she told me that hugging, kissing, and cuddling are very common. i was surprised. she also told me that 3/4 of students are smoking at her school. wow, this is insane -_- (i don't know teenagers from other school, so i compare it with my schoolmates, no offense but i think we are morally better :x)

P.S. this is so subjective and i wrote it based on my opinion. no offense.

then i realized

Hi guys. Sorry for not updating this blog frequently. I was so busy -___-  loads of homework and quizzes keep on haunting me. So depressed because of this new system.

So today we were having biology quiz. Nights before the quiz, i didn't study at all. I knew it was my fault. Then, yesterday, i did study. But, time ticks fast and i hadn't memorized all the materials. After struggling for a few hours, i was desperate. I know that i wouldn't make it. So, i slept and let all the worries flow with my dream.

It's the day! I was so freaking afraid that the materials would come out from campbell or other sophisticated and advanced books. Plus, my friend's friend told me that there might be some questions out from the text book we learnt. So, she suggested me to use google. Just imagine, i sit on the second column, row 2, in front of me there were no people, because two of my friends were absent and they moved to another seat which is less scarier than sitting on row 1. P.S. i am not blaming them and i would never do it because they were doing the right thing. So i planned to move our the desk behind row 5, second column. While we were moving the desk, some of my classmates started yelling at us. Yes, i know we were doing a selfish deed. The reason why they yelled at us because they are afraid that if we moved, the second column would look peculiar and the teacher would be monitoring us from behind. I was on a massive dilemma. I had to choose either friendship or a nice bio score. After a long consideration, jane suddenly decided to sit on our original seat and she let me to stay on the wicked seat. Of couse, i am not a jerk. I would never want my bestie to suffer herself while i heavenly sit on the wicked seat to cheat. No way. So, in a flash, i moved all my stuffs back to my desk. Then, the deer came in....

During the test, I tried to cheat. I opened the text book, prepared my phone so that i can search the answer through google. But, the reality, when i tried to peek the book, my heart's beating fast, my hand was as cold as snow. Aigooooo my bad for having 'mental tempe'. I succeeded copied some phrases from text book. And the rest questions i answered them based on what i learnt because deer kept staring at us. EPIC FAIL

well,  we shouldn't have moved to the back row if in the end we moved back to the original seat. Ckck. So that's all. I would like to apologize to you guys because we had been arrogant. Ummmmmmm adios.

ashamed

Ashamed. This word suits me the best. Lemme tell you why.

This morning, i got my monthly test tabulation. My scores are so freaking bad. As predicted, math is burned by super hooooot fire. Well, actually i dont really sad because days before math exam, i had mentally prepared that i would get bad score. The distressing one is my chemistry score. It's really unpredictable and i hate it to the coreeee. Ignore my babble. 

Now, i realize and i hate the fact that principle teaches us chemistry. He is super duper merciless and i think i prefer the former teacher. Grrrrrrr this morning he said that almost half of the class get red marks. Even there is someone who got 30. Ohmygod. I am so freaking afraid that i am one of them. Desperate. 

Pardon me, i know there are many grammatical errors on this post. Just ignore it. I am not in mood to type. Hufffftttttttt

always be thankful :)

This post will be quite long. Hehe found the inspiration while watching daai tv true story dramas. Enjoy :D

When you think that your life is so atrocious, believe me there are more people in this world who have tougher life than yours and they are still living their life positively.

When you think that you hate school because of the stupid exams, lots of assignment, school dramas and obnoxious teachers, believe me that there are so many poor adolescent that even don't have chances to taste the excitements of school.

When you think that your family is not as wealthy as others, believe me you are more lucky than those who even don't have houses to reside in, decent clothes to wear, and three-time meals to eat each day.

When you keep grumbling because the internet connection is so lame, you are more lucky than those people who even don't know what is internet. You can still read this blog post, though.

When you think that your today's meals aren't scrumptious enough, there are millions of people died because of starvation, millions of poor who eat cassava porridge without any side dishes every single day. Okay, just stop comparing what your friends eat and what you eat. Because sushi and nasi padang make no difference, they are basically made of rice though.

When you feel that you lack of your parents' attention, please reconsider those orphans who even don't have parents and they are still able to live happily with other orphans as well at orphanage.

When you feel that you hate your holiday so much because your family don't go overseas for vacation, just shut up and enjoy your vacation in your own way in town. You can visit town's museums, parks, malls or just staying at home doing what you are supposed to do. You are so lucky, because there are people who need to work even though it is holiday.

At last but not least, be thankful of who you are, because how hard your life is, God will always give you the way. Life is too short for us to compare our life with others' life. God bless.

the hectic week

This week has really messed me up. All assignments and quizzes come to me at once and the deadlines are so close since all scores should be submitted by August 6. Big thanks to sutomo. I think sutomo should remain their former system which is easier for us. The new system is too burdensome for me.

For homework's sake, i sleep at 11 every night and wake up at 6. Normally, i sleep at 10, and 60 minutes make a huge difference for me. Our teachers are so merciless. They give loadsssssss of homework and i think this is just the beginning of the ordeal. Year two is really absolutely definitely earnestly tough.

Nowadays, i looked so lugubrious and desperate. Well, i am afraid of sth that is something that i am afraid the most. Ok, pardon my stupid murmur.

Anyway, the first monthly exam is drawing closer. And guess what, i do it once again. No significant preparation. Teehee. My tutor said 1st monthly test is just a kind of 'bonus stage', the real one is 2nd monthly test. Hmm, i hesitate with that sentence. On quizzes, i even didn't do so well, so how about the exam? Ckck.

Hmm why am i so slothful? I've been searching for an answer since a long time ago and the answer seems impossible to be found. Hmm

the agreement

A few days before final exam began, my dad called me. He asked me whether i had prepared well for the exam. I told him i didn't study at all, because basically i would be cramming during exam *hehe . Then, he asked my 1st semester parallel rank, so i said i got 60-s. Then he asked me someone's parallel rank, i said he got 40. After that, i said "if my ranking is higher 30 or more than his rank, then what will you give me, dad?" *woah, i'm so materialistic* lol i didn't mean like that, i just wanted to be appreciated. *plok plokkk* He thought for awhile, and then he said he would give me a new tablet. Hmm, ok, it seemed possible so i said "CHALLENGE ACCEPTED" :D
*p.s. he is someone who got the first rank on my former class.

After we stated the agreement, i became kinda panicky. I afraid i would be the loser. So, i decided to learn math, physics, and chemistry first because i'm super lame at those subjects. Eventually, the day had come. I was so nervous. I kept praying.

Thank God, my results were quite satisfying. My parallel rank was also higher 35 rankings than his rank. So happy, glad, joyful, grateful, blablabla hahaha. As what my dad had promised, i got a tablet♡ . happy ending wkwk