pro and cons

Hi! Finally i'm here after such a long hiatus. Honestly, i was going to post about my recent trip to Aceh, i even typed half of it already, but yeah hahahahaha pls excuse my indolence.

Today, i'm gonna talk about social media. Some people think social media ruins one's real life. It makes people become awkward while communicating in real life. Direct speeches and convos become shorter or less intense, etc. But for me, social media is beneficial.

Friendster was my gate to the world of social networking. I still remember, we were still in sec 1. My used-to-be bestie and i would sneak out to internet cafe just to access our friendster page. (Our phones can't access internet back then in that era). Just imagine how possessed we were, Friendster while everyone else played the online game called Audition. Hahahaha so imbecile eh.

After the friendster raid, here came something more interesting called Facebook. It was 2009 when i first joined facebook. The alay frenzy was spreading like virus. Almost everyone typ3s l4iK 7h1s on their status and comments. And not to mention those shameless edited selfies. Ergh if you happen to embarrass someone, just stalk their 2009 or 2010 posts, so hilarious i swear!

Twitter. My english savior.
My english skills were foul and mortifying. No lies. I didn't attend any english courses or tuition or anything you name it. I used to tweet or write anything using indonesian. Sooo one day, one of my classmates tweeted sth like "Do you bla bla bla", so i absentmindedly replied, "Yes, i am." Then that person replied me telling that my english was so bad. From that moment on, i solemnly promised to myself to improve my english. I tried to tweet using english as often as possible. I followed a lot of english quote acc and tried to translate the quotes. Yes, hardwork never betrays. Slowly but sure, my english was finally decent. My english became even better when i had the courage to read english novels. Voilá! Here i am. Soooooo grateful that Twitter was invented or else my blog must be still in indonesian.

I was so curious about Instagram, when my classmates connected instagram to twitter. But instagram was only available in iOS devices back then. Once instagram announced that it was finally available on android, i was ecstatic! After going thru some process, i finally got an android tablet. (I told you alrd on earlier post). Instagram opened my eyes, that the world is actually so vast and beautiful. I learned a lot things from instagram too. My hobby of editing photos is so influenced by instagram too! I have a dream to produce pics like how those travel bloggers do, someday! I feel like having different perspective on seeing things, yeah thanks to instagram. It really inspires me a lot.

I actually still own other socmed accounts, but they tell no tale lol. Pinterest (it inspires me too!), Path, ask.fm, (line, bbm and skype don't count right? Hahaha)

Though i told you socmed is beneficial, it also has negative impacts. Like i become so attached to internet, that one day without internet could make me dying. Nomophobia. :(

So till next time maybe. :)

blessed 18

November 10 is the day i always look forward to each year. I don't know about you, but birthdays are important to me and i have expectation that it ought to be a good one every year. Almost all of my birthdays were niceee, gratefully, and thank people around me for always making it nice. This year's november 10 was awesome.

Birthday macarons, because birthday cakes are too mainstream! Besides this little french treats have lots of flavors and it feels so festive! :p

At midnight, he surprised me, i mean really surprised me with his and his friends' (and actually mine) video call. It was sooo funny and i forgot to screenshot, poor me. I really appreciate all his efforts to make my birthday an awesome one, from taking me to have early birthday dinner, personally giving me early birthday present, arranging a group video call though i know you're sooo busy and such. I know 'thank you' is always not enough.

Shortly after that, i surprised my best friends with a fact. They went frantic and blame me for not telling them earlier. Hahahaah sorry but it was funny anyway, rite? Later, my best friend posted a used-to-be-controversial pic of me and him on ig. That's when everyone knew the fact and i was flooded with questions. Well, funny to surprise people on your birthday! Teehee. 

Oh i also got a package from depok and probably a postcard from osaka (still on the way though). Thank you! Long distance friendships are cute! Can't wait to reunite with my best pals in december!! I miss you guys so bad already.

On november 11, my pharmacy friends surprised me with a birthday cake! It was surprising because i though they would be celebrating it on monday, but they didn't. The distraction was cool and i never saw it coming! Thank you guyssss. 

One word to describe my 17: transformation. I really felt myself changed a lot during that year. Also, there were a lot of things changed! Thankfully, the changes were leading to positive way. My 17 was one of the best years in my life, if not the best. I love you guys for making my life seem easier to deal with. 

One of the lessons my 17 has taught me, be true of who you are, don't try to alter yourself for anyone else because when you did, you lose the right person, and worse, you lose yourself. Everyone is born uniquely, and if you are bold, keep being bold and i promise you someone would come along and love you for who you are. 

"Some people lose diamonds in search of stones." Be thankful of everything given to you and make the best out of it! Don't ever take people for granted. :) 

ask questions and what?

truth to be told, i used to hate this not-so-new social media called ask.fm. this socmed literally is full of nosy people. no kidding. i even told my bestie that i wasn't going to be influenced by anyone to make an account there. but everything changed when i saw my pharmacy friends getting so bombarded by ask.fm euphoria. i became curious about what this socmed could do, thus, i made an account. btw my ask.fm id is veronicaphing, and yes you are welcome to ask me questions. tadaaaa. at first, it was indeed fun. people asked me questions about my opinions about themselves and vice versa. but, in the end i think it's so boring. (it's only been 2 days lol.) boredom level vero.

but i am not saying that ask.fm is totally useless. i was beyond touched and exhilarated to know that my bestie is indeed my real bestie. she literally knows me inside and outside. there were some ridiculous high school moments which i almost forgot but she still remembers those. blessed for having somebody so nice as my best friend. i undoubtedly treasure our friendship.

anyway i was highly criticized as an absentminded person. previously, i always picture myself as a nosy and noisy person towards my close friends. but the truth, jane said i lacked at giving attention towards her that surprisingly made her feel like i was not her friend. omg. i was really not aware since when i developed this trait. i am so sorry for being trashy.

my new friends also told me their first impressions on me. most of them said i was so silent. hahahahhahaha seriously, i was never pictured as a calm and taciturn person in my entire life. well, you guys really need to cope with my talkativeness once we are closer.

happy halloween! they say it's the 666th time halloween falls on friday and the next one would be in 2025. anw, tmr is november already and i am so excited! teehee bye!

yay or nay?

Yep, feeling grateful! Tho i know we were the last generation whose photos of us weren't taken using mobile phones. Who cares. I still remember playing mamasak (cooking) using plants as the ingredients with neighbors. I still remember i used to go to neighbor's home so that we could play dokter-dokteran (doctors and nurses) using stuffed animals as our patients. Playing dramas as fruit sellers using monopoly fake money. Playing congkak with cousins. Tag and hide-and-seek almost every day! And soooo many more. My childhood was pretty tho i was a bit rebellious lol. 

I wonder what kids nowadays would tell their future kids about their childhood. Oh maybe, they would say: hey kid, you know what. Mommy used to have 1760 followers including Justin Bieber on twitter, my ig photo was liked by 7802 people, i had 27605 different selfie poses on iphone, your grandparents bought me iPad, iPad mini, iPad air, iPhone 5, iPhone 6, MacBook Air, MacBook Pro, Galaxy S5, Note4, Xbox 360, PS 4, blablablabla. My favorite song was Anaconda by Nicki Minaj (eww). My favorite tv show was Silet! And i loved Ahmad Dhani LOL. Just kidding :) Technology ruins you. Unobtrusively. And i am so ruined that i won't go a day without my phone huhuhuhu

Till next time! xx

timeline

I looked back to my past loaded with so many bitter-sweet memories. I try to picture myself as an infant through series of photos bcs obviously i forgot how it felt to be a baby (people say that everyone has minor amnesia, which means we can't remember anything related to the first 2 years of our lives). How easy it was to be an infant and cute toddler because all you did was waking up to loving parents, drinking milk, crying, sleeping and the cycle went on. But it seemed like an invisible stage of your life bcs we didn't have any vision about our infant and toddler life. Well, it obviously was not my favorite stage of life. 

Subsequently, we reached our preschool years. I didn't remember much. Only the joy i had along with my fellow friend and cousin when it was recess time, bcs we would spend it running and playing around school yard plus seeking for caterpillars (YEP! We were naughty). Seems like it was the only memory i had lol. 

My primary school years were mediocre. I still recalled i was that smart and self-centered girl. I used to think that i am the best and everyone else is a step behind me (here's the dirty little secret, i always got 2nd rank, only got 1st once). My friends were little at class, yea because of my selfishness. But i changed, didn't i? 

Junior high school. Hmm the years when all your hormones show off. I did so many embarrassing things during those years. Having your first crush, texting with alien language (re: alay), editing your selfies with oh-my-God-why filters, stickers, texts (oh you still could find those embarrassing photos, just type 'veronicaphing' on google photos.) Jhs 3 was when i found out who i really was and the real meaning of friendship.

Senior high school. The most colorful phase of my life. OMG I WANNA GO BACK (or not). Despite the distressing exams, annoying teachers, endless assignments, childish dramas and huge burden, the fun parts paid it off. Seriously, i had no regret and i sincerely thank myself for having fun (while maintaning nice scores [except bloody math]). I am so so sooo grateful that i met a bunch of nice people whom i can always count on. Without them, my life would be in monochrome. Though we are now separated into different parts of the world, i have huge faith that we will meet again! Missing each one of you so badddddd alrd. 

Here's what i am trying to say. I had a lot of stupid and embarrassing experience, but who cares? It's over! No matter how notorious or preposterous you are, soon, all of em will be your past. Everything will pass and you're gonna be alright. Let us strive to be a better person and let time heal what's incurable. Don't ever give up. You can't change your past. Make the best of your present. Future is still a mystery yet it brings hope. :)

P.S. i'm starting my college life technically tomorrow (well, it's sunday already). Tbh i am not excited. More like nervous.
P.P.S. my longest holiday in my life is about to be over. Frankly, so many things happened during my holiday (so glad). And it's the least boring holiday ever!
P.P.P.S. tonight is my last night as a night owl. I am sooooo gonna miss being night owl, especially spending those nights with the right person. Well, say hello to veronica, the early bird!
P.P.P.P.S. seems like i need to stop this p.s. thingy. Thank you for spending your few minutes reading this post. Much love! xxxx

a tough yet bright comet

I know i should have my spirits up at least on my first semester of college. But somehow seniors' words are haunting me. Endless assignments, very packed schedule, strange environment, brand new people, hectic days, sleepless nights, and even stupid and unreasonable rules. Well, at least i don't meet calculus anymore. *trying to cheer myself up* Goodbye to my easy and lazy days :') i miss high school so much, because even when the days were hard, i somehow feel so much less burdened. And much happier.

now the blind monkey

Nobody could predict the future. Even when you were sure something was gonna happen, but in the end it didn't. Well, who to blame but your lame expectations? 

Distance sucks in the way it never has. Now it's crystal clear that distance could change everything, even good friendship. "Life goes on, vero, you gotta move on.", says someone who's tryna to grasp what kind of crap is going on. 

This may look like a pathetic dandelion, but actually it never is pathetic. Funny not funny.

fortuitous monkey

Hi everyoneeeeee. Finally I come back after a long hiatus. Gonna fill you up with another event or maybe many events of my life. Stay tuned hehehehe.

I am officially a college student now. I got accepted at University of Sumatera Utara majoring in Pharmacy, my first choice. (I hope i won't regret this decision.) Relieved and grateful! Brand new environment and meeting whole strangers freak me out especially when I came from private school which means I wasn't really used to socialize with native pribumi. (My bahasa really sucks cos my mother tongue is hokkian). But I believe it doesn't matter because we socialize with people not the color or appearance or social status. As long as you are kind, you are welcome! Wish me luck for finding new gooood friends and awesome uni life!!

Here's another thing. Some people say that a girl can never have a boy as best friend or confidant. Well that one is the bullshitest bullshit ever. No kidding. As long as we could 'connect' well, why should we limit our best friend circle to girls only? And btw not all close boy friends need to be your boyfriend. Relationships don't last but friendships do! That's the point. Sooooo recently I met (not exactly encounter bcs we were classmates for 3 years already but he recently became much less sucks and oh btw I used to hate him). We become really close these recent months. One of the nice things about him is we could actually blabber about anything, YES ANYTHING. We could chat until 1 or 2 am and our best record is 4 am. Could you imagine that??? Yea that is exactly what happens when 2 talkative people talk. Feeling grateful to have him as best friend whom I can confide in. Well he almost understands me as well as I understand myself and maybe that's why our chats are so lively. Someone whom can bear my talkative self is awesome, hence he is a little awesome (teehee)

Well sometimes I wish everything good would stay stagnant. And i wish everyone good never leaves. But only a naive thinks like that because life goes on. Like a roller coaster ride, sometimes life brings you to top and bottom. Enjoy the ride and you'll be fine!

And Mr. Time could you please slow down a tad. I am freaking out here bcs you elapse really fast and I am afraid I can't keep up with your pace.

Till next time! xx

the end of the beginning

Months have passed, days have elapsed, everything changed. Got this random midnight urge to update this blog. Tbh idk how to start this bcs i literally got tonnes to tell.

Within only a few months, eveything changed. I slacked, had fun, being carefree, doing everything with my best friends! We even had small mini food contest and other silly events loollll. My final year at school was literally the best among all, no kiddin, tho we got really busy back then. surprisingly, I blabber a lot with some ppl i never imagine i would converse with, lol im not that bad i just had some issues in the past. I just got crazier and spent my time fooling around when i was supposed to focus on my study instead. But everything is too late~ and btw i dont feel any regret bcs everything was so fine. Hmmm anyway our class <The Skyscrapers> had short trip to brastagi on june 22. It wassssss so fun! And i wish i could rewind it. I miss you guys already!

I just can barely grasp the fact that i am no longer attending school, which means i am officially graduated from high school, i am now an unemployed person (someone pls hire me maybe?) and still havent got my ID card which i was supposed to get them last year but i am just lazy retrieving it and they dont send it to my house and i think it wasnt useful but then i realize i need it to get driving license or whatsoever. I think i just rapped [it's double p ladies and gentleman jsyk]. Oopssss hehehe

My future is quite obvious. I need to score high for sbmptn. Btw i am so sad that i couldnt make it to UI and ironically i even havent had the test. My parents dont let me. They dont even let me choose Pharmacy - UI as my first choice. Btw i am not being arrogant or what by thinking that i definitely would be offered a space at UI bcs its freaking hard to enter that uni, it's just my parents dont even give me a chance to attempt it. I know this is cruel, but life goes on. In the end i chose pharmacy at USU. Wish me luck folks for the exam!

Actually there were a lot to tell you guys but its too late alrd and my brain stops functioning, so call it a night shall we? Hehehe

friendship

Happy, grateful, thankful, ecstatic, gratified, blessed. I guess even those words can never truly express my feelings towards my pals. Don't overestimate my close friends. My buddies are just a bunch of ordinary students entrapped in the same class as i am. They are soooo far away from being perfect. But i guess it is our imperfection that bonds our friendship as a whole. They are sometimes so moody and obnoxious that i wanna crunch them in a gulp. But sometimes their understanding and attention is so lovely and perfect that i wanna hug them immediately and burst in tears. They sometimes crack a joke so well that my stomach cramps from laughing too hard. We share secrets and tease each other. They even sometimes criticize me in a way no one could do but close friends. My close friends are like sisters and brothers to me. I love you guys. And i mean it. :)

insecurities

Hi. I am so sorry for deserting this blog, like again.

Santa's reindeers have gone back to north pole. Christmas decorations are soon to be removed. Yes, christmas may have been over, but heyyy, new year is just around the corners! Nothing special happened on xmas, obviously, because my family doesn't celebrate this event.


2013 has been such joyful and bittersweet and troublesome year for me. I just can't believe it's over in just a few more days. 2013 changes me a lot. Like ex i started putting some basic makeup, and many more! I will surely miss 2013 :( too many memories to be forgotten. Hmm, now i started wondering whether i accomplished any of my 2013 resolutions. I am still super lazy, it gets worse instead, sighs. My weight has been stagnant, or maybe i get additional 2 or 3 kgs. Thank God i still don't need to do diets. I really seldom do any selfie now, which is a good news(?). I also don't tweet that frequently anymore. My buddies still love me despite my silliness and craziness, kekekeke.

2014. Since i am graduating this april, i do not know whether to be excited or not for new year. I always hate farewells. We all will be separated, towards universities across the world. Bleh. Gonna savour the remaining time of togetherness with my buddies, well when it still lasts. This is so heart-breaking ya know!

Time surely flies. Btw this pic was taken at cemara, surprised? Hmm, nah.

Life goes on, i know. Better things won't come if old ones aren't replaced. Hmm can only hope for the best. I still haven't figured out why i am so galau right now. 

This post is so unimportant that i still dont get it why i posted this anyway.....

17

I guess this photo pretty much sums up my 17th birthday. I am really really happy today. I was throwing small party, hmm, not a party though, just a simple and humble birthday treat. Too bad i could not throw a large party, but i am feeling so blessed and grateful though. I was lucky because my birthday neither fell on exam week (it never happens) nor on weekdays. Thank you for coming and brightening my special day. I really appreciate all birthday greetings and wishes. Gracias mis amigos!

17 means more responsibility and maturity. But well since everyone says age doesn't signify maturity so yeahh.. ehem. lol i am being so vague.

avocado

OMG I am gonna tell you my absurd experience tonight!! LOL laugh all you want ok!

I attended Adriana's birthday party tonight. I arrived and then I was told to write wishes on a card. The card was then put at an owl's house(?). Everything was fine so far. We took photos, chatted a lot, ate and was enjoying the party. Then out of sudden, the emcee said he was going to call some wishes-card writers. I even teased delfina saying that she would get called. Then... the emcee called 'veronica'. OMG I was surprised. I thought it might be someone else. So I looked around, I was the only veronica there. I went to stage and read out loud the wishes. It was so awkward wkwkwk. Btw I got a present lol. Ok embarrassment level 1 completed.

Here comes the peak of embarrassment. The emcee told adri to summon(lol) 6 ppl consisting of 3 males and 3 females. Shelly was the first to be picked, then cindy tan, albert, raymond, and edwin. She took longer time to scan the crowd. Her eyes finally spotted me and said sth to shelly and I was chosen. You can't imagine how my face looked like. So I went to the stage with the other 5 victims. Emcee told us about the game and rules. We were then divided into 3 couples. Shelly & RH, CT & AP, and edwin & me. I previously wasn't acquainted with him, so you know it was so awkward having a stranger to play a game with you in front of massive crowd. OK. CAN YOU ACTUALLY IMAGINE THAT? I thought we must have gotten the last place, ckck.

First mission: partners' leg should be tied. And we should walk fast to the edge of stage and then come back. It hurt like hell to run with tied leg.  Even worse, we didn't synchronize our steps so it was chaotic. But somehow we managed to finish at first place. We get to choose what we should drink. Choices: JUS PEDAS (spicy juice), JUS WANGI (fragrant juice), JUS MAKNYOS (extremely thick coffee). Without any consideration, I spurted that I chose jus wangi. Then the waitress serve it. My first impression: finely diced raw avocado + water. Ohh easy. I absentmindedly drank it without thinking twice. I took large gulp, and everyone cheered me. Wow the emcee said I was so brave. Something wasn't right. Then, after drinking it, wow my tongue tasted spicy, this is not good. The bokasi emcee then told me that it was PETE JUICE AND IT WAS NOT AVOCADO JUICE. Omg for God's sake. I ever tried 1 piece of pete when I was a kid and directly puke it. So until tonight I've never eaten pete anymore. I DRANK A GLASS OF PETE JUICE TONIGHT. Omg another achievement unlocked. My breath smelled like rotten carcass. The soon-to-be-punched emcee laughed me a lot till his stomach hurt. And so did the whole crowd in that hall tonight. OMG. Such a silly laughingstock I am.

Mission 2: we should walk fast again with rope tied legs. We finished at second place this time. We sing children songs with lyrics from another song. Edwin sang potong bebek angsa with burung kakaktua lyrics. Absurd. This mission was actually the easiest from all.

Mission 3: we should mimic the dance instructor's gesture. We danced chicken dance which obviously the easiest from gangnam style and goyang sesar.

Well, judging time! We were judged based on audience's applause. We WON though. HAHAHA

My breath was so smelly that everyone avoided me. The EO was too cruel!! I even kumur-kumur using coca cola but it didn't help.

Andddd I was suddenly so notorious tonight.  Everyone calls me gadis pete. Oh no. Even, some strangers (aunties and uncles) whom I never met before said I was so cool and brave. Veronica si gadis pete ane keren. Ok great, now everyone knows me Veronica, the pete girl.


In conclusion, adriana's party was the best birthday party I've ever attended. No offense though. I really had fun despite the pete juice trolololol. Definitely once-in-a-lifetime experience :D

facade

I don't care if you reckon my life is dramatic or boring or childish or whatsoever. I am really contented for what I am and what I have now. Though of course everyone always wants more, but still, I am glad :)

I used to be afraid to know what people thought about me. Like, I really cared about their bad remarks about me and loathed knowing someone else hated me. But now, I just don't care about those lousy fake people. I am just gonna stick to my unpretentious and real friends. I cannot be more ecstatic to have such awesome and lunatic buddies!

Sooo, recently my friends challenged me to behave more maturely for mere one day. (Lol yeah, I realize ok, though I am 17 soon, but my attitudes are a little bit immature). I accepted the absurd challenge insouciantly.
D-day! I changed into a placid and calm person. I spoke calmly. I giggled womanly. I threw no joke. And I was not loud! Eminently not my true self! Well they were surprised. (I figured out that little people knew about my one-day transformation which is good, bcs it was embarrassing ya know!). They said I was unnatural and stiff. Well of course I couldn't be natural. It was not me, obviously I couldn't be comfortable, rite?
A lesson learned: be yourself! :) you are unique and awesome in your own way.

I always love going hangout with my buddies. Drops of excitement always pumps into our blood and loudness always follows. :D

¡Buenas noches mis amigos!

adrenaline

¡Hola!

Our first lesson was mandarin, and we had quiz. Lol I didn't study it at all last night, so yeah.. Luckily the questions weren't so hard, so I could finish it successfully. Then, chemistry lesson, no peculiar things happened. Next, bio lesson. Woah, perhaps I was beginning to build anger since bio lesson. Someone, idk intentionally or unintentionally asked and commanded me rudely. I was so upset. Yeah, but I still had stock of forbearance. So okay, though I didn't deserve to be treated like that bcs I never talked that rudely towards anybody, even a stranger. Okay, now lips are closed, I don't wanna trigger more problems by letting you know the real situation :x Next, religion, we watched some nice videos. Last one, physical education. We also had exam. Actually the exam was fine, and I got 95 which weren't a reason why I was so upset later on. Okay, ready for the climax? The test was over. Jane and I were ravenous already and our tummy really needed to be refilled. So we headed to block A canteen to grab some food. There were crowd of people there. At first, I ignored them and I went to buy food. The situation got more intense and wild. I knew it was not my business. But I couldn't help but stared at them. Those stupid junior high were fighting. Judging from their posture, like junior 1 or 2. Like seriously? You fought in public?! Everything was so messed up and loud and uncontrolled. I was so confused. Unexpectedly, I shouted at them. With everyone's eyes staring directly at me. I shouted, "Woi, lu lang si bo nao hyo?" Translation: "Eh, you guys have no brains huh?" P.S. They are all strangers, I even haven't met them once. OMG I was so shocked. I myself also didn't know how those words spurted from my mouth. Maybe it's because surge of adrenaline consumed my whole body that I sputtered at them. Then after that, as if I was a psycho and invisible they continued fighting. This time I couldn't hold back the anger. I stared them with the most vicious eyes I could manage and I said, "woi lu lang kira ane hebat liao hyo sio phak khi kantin?" Translation: "Eh, do you think it's cool to fight at canteen?" Then jane told me to calm down and told BP. My hands were trembling and my head was spinning. I really couldn't accept the fact that I exposed my anger in public. Really embarrassing. Another 'first'. I told my friends that I shouted at canteen and they said it was so unbelievable, and they regretted that they missed the opportunity to witness my anger. LOL. Jane was so lucky to witness such rare emotion of mine. :P *mercurial mood swings*

Btw my friends and I are recently study spanish autodidactically. Lol though today is only the second day of learning spanish teehee. It's really more fun to study something new along with your friends, it motivates you a lot! :D Believe me, if you say english is difficult, español is ten times as difficult as inglés is.

¡Buenas noches! ;)

I laugh hard. I play hard. I joke a lot. I am who I am. It's up to you to accept me or like me or whatever you name it. I don't really care. I am fed up with facade of ppl. As long as I still have time, I am gonna rock my final high school year with laughter, sweet memories and craziness. Don't be so judgmental and hold back your stares bcs we don't give a damn :)


P.S. you are such an infuriating cutie pie.

flee

I guess I begin deserting my blog all over again. Welllll, it looks like my old habit of abandoning blog visits me again hehe. Imma such a bad blogger. Btw, it's late midnight or maybe veryyy early morning now, and I feel like chattering. A lot.

Ya know, ups and downs fill my life recently. It's kinda perplexing that something bad actually has its bright side, vice versa. Well, of course after getting through thorough self introspection that everything happens for a reason, or a reason behind it, or whatever else. Like for example, my monthly exams scores were disastrous that I almost shed tears. Thankfully, I did NOT. My scores were really so bad, like the worst I've ever scored. EVER. I am eminently disappointed with myself. But who else to blame, but myself? Thank God, I learned how to deal with predicament. I was so surly and totally mute for couple of hours after getting the stupid result. (Which I think is normal to be sad). Then I realized, why was I be reacting this way? Not all things happened just the way you wanted it to be. Be realistic. It's ok to be sad, as long as you don't cross the limit. Although you cried until your tear glands explode, it won't change the fact. You've got some more chances. Ok, time to move on. After that totally-mute-and-do-not-disturb-me mood shifted, here I am, the laughingstock and non-stop chattering vero return from the oblivionland. Yeah, even though my scores were as bad as hell, but i know my close friends are so nice to me. They comfort me. Yeah, everything is not entirely bad, right?

I guess August has been the most dramatic month of the year. Loads of things happened. Some of them are vicious. Some are dreamy. Some are soothing. Some are unfathomable. And now that August is over, say hello to September! :)

the slacker is slacking

Hello readers! I am so sorry for deserting this blog for months. Slackness was consuming my whole body till I didn't have any energy to update blog jk hehe! Sooooo, here I am, finally got nothing else to do and start typing nonsenses.

As you guys know, I still have a few months away before graduating from high school. I don't know whether I should be gleeful or remorse or exasperated. I remember when I was a little girl, granny used to say that I ought to study hard and let each year pass quickly and finally graduate from school and start earning money. I used to be sooooo excited about being a grown-up. It means unlimited freedom and infinite happiness. As primary school student I was not joyful. I got little friends and didn't get freedom as a little girl deserved. My secondary years were not the most gratifying ones. Even though I was blessed by having a few good friends, I don't live my life to the fullest. Mom used to be so protective and didn't let me go to malls to hangout with friends (ikr, it's pathetic). It's worsened by some drama queens who were so eager to make problems with me. Ok, forget it. I have ecstatics years in high school. Yeah, I am now understand why people say high school years are the most beautiful. Everyone's so fine, full of laughters, and enjoying life, though we need to strive to keep up with tough lessons. I am so blessed that I find some great and warm-hearted buddies I can count on. High school is cool. I can't believe in a few months, it's over. Well, enjoy when it lasts.

I am going to padang to spend holidays. Everyone gives me why-do-you-go-to-padang-it-is-uncool look when I told them. Well...

a memorable farewell party

The last 3 days had been amazing for me. We (Samto, Angeline, Adriana, Shelly, Raymond, Cindy L, Jane, Delfina, Nelson, Catherine, Andy, David unyu, Devin, and I) went to brastagi to have a little farewell party for samto. Hmm idk how to start. I guess this is going to be a longgggg post. Close this tab if you are busy lol :p

Day 1 (01/06/2013)
Everyone agreed to gather at shelly's house, umm not her house specifically, her kos. I was the first one to arrive. Shelly and I had our meal while waiting for others. Then, one by one arrived at shelly's kos. We originally decided that everyone ought to arrive by 12. But eventually we set off at 1 pm because some are 'ngaret'. ini medan, bung! Kalo ga ada yang ngaret, bukan medan namanya. Lol i was just joking, no offense ya hehehe. We eventually arrived at brastagi after 2,5 hours of non-stop gossiping, ho pua ft sip pun was our topic teehee. We took some photos there. After that, we went to the only one traditional market to buy some fruits. I never imagined how it was to buy things and bargain prices with my pals at a traditional market. Lol so funny. We bought some sunkists, oranges and passion fruits. We also bought bracelets for each of us, so that every time we saw that bracelet, we could remember our trip that day.

After buying things, we bought food at resto asia, and the headed back to villa. After having our shower, we had our meal.

Mouthful of french fries

Then, after everyone's ready, we were playing games, chatting, incessant gossiping, laughing till we drop, and the last session was heart-to-heart talks with samto. We confessed everything related to samto. Everyone was so touching and tear-jerking. Most of us even cried, a lot. I am an emotional person, but idk what happened to me that night, i couldn't cry even though my heart was so lugubrious. I only shed one or two tears, hmm. We 'buka-bukaan' (throw away you dirty mind, i mean we share secrets, hmm) until 2 am. We slept soundly after that hahahaha.

Day 2 (02/06/2013)
Rise and shine! Kinda embarrassing, i was the 13th person to wake up. I told jane to wake me up but she didn't -_- we showered, had breakfast, blablabla and then had a long photo shoot at balcony. Samto was leaving that day, so we had loads of photos with him.

Somebody tell me how to look nice on photos! -.-

The clock showed 10.38, it's time for samto to bid farewell with us. Lol don't be serious, he's really leaving in august, so we can still meet him haha. We went to the only amusement park at brastagi, mikie holiday shortly after that. Mikie was so crowded that day, so we had to queue for some minutes. My adrenaline was produced a little bit much, so i dare to ride all machines, even the extreme ones, but T-rex. T-rex is seriously too extreme, i afraid i would feel nauseous. We had so much fun that day. The day was getting dark and foggy, so we left mikie.

Omg look at my hair. I was like struck by high voltage electricity hahahaha!

We went back to villa, rode bicycle and then got ready for dinnertime. We had our dinner at warung kaki lima along jalan jamin ginting. I never ate at there with my family, so it's funny to eat there with friends. On our way back to villa, someone suddenly said that people only check in on foursquare if they are going to prestigious places, what if we check in at low class places? Lol, we did. We checked in at Warung Muslim Anugrah and Bandrek Abi Cayank Ummie. We ate at warung anugrah, but we even didn't know the existence of that alay bandrek stall, someone coincidentally found this on 4sq and told us. Lol we laughed till our stomach ached! Hehehe. We walked around the complex. We were so crazy that time, ahh very memorable. We were singing songs, telling jokes, etcetc. Coincidentally, ia 10 students were staying at the same complex, so we visited their villa. Daebak 35 ppl in one villa, how did they manage to get shower, someone else would brb rite? We were like soooo sksd, luckily they don't mind it and they were so amiable towards us. We even had a group photo with them. 

As usual, we chatted until midnight then had our beautiful sleep, alay wkwk.

Day 3 (03/06/2013)
Clock ticks fast, 2 days time elapse in a blink of an eye. We were going home that day. It's 06.34 in the morning, i was the 3rd to wake up yeayy, lol though i slept again for 1,5 hours and woke up at 8 :p We had breakfast, showered, and then packed our stuff. We went to villa clubhouse to take photos.

Just like going back to childhood :D

We went to pasar brastagi again to buy home some fruits. I bought 2 kg of passion fruits lolol. We headed to Taman Alam Lumbini afterwards. We prayed and had a walk there. We walked to the top and found some gym-like stuffs so we rode them. We also saw a big and eye-catching playground there. We saw no securities, so we stepped inside and played like a crazy one. Then suddenly the security officer showed up and pointed at us, omg what an epic embarrassment. Finally we headed to the last destination before going back to medan, The Hill Hotel & Resort. The hotel was so natural and had many animals, artificial lake and beautiful gazebos. We had our lunch there. Even though the meal wasn't cheap, but the taste was worth it. Nomnom. We took several photos there hihihihi. The sky cried and was getting dark, so we had better went back to medan.

Congratulations for having finished reading this tedious blog post. I'm just writing something i can read and rewind our memories later when we are adults.

Girls from left: Delfina, Jane, Catherine, Veronica, Cindy L, Angeline, Adriana, Shelly
Fellas from left: Andy, Devin, Raymond, Nelson, David, Samto

Massive thanks to:
Adriana Salim for providing us villa, transportation and everything else. Maybe this trip would not be as successful as we had if there were no you and your kakak and your om supir.

Shelly Triana for arranging this trip so well that we had abundant snacks and food and comfy trip! I miss your sexy voice lolololol

Angeline Josethang for sharing the idea of throwing a farewell party at brastagi. I am so happy that you recommend brastagi, not sun plaza or other mainstream places in town. Hahahahaha

Samto Wongso for being our main star of the trip! Hihihihi

David unyu for providing us transportation and driver!

And Cindy Liantono, Jane Tarmiya, Raymond Harris, Catherine Ng, Nelson AK, Delfina, Devin Xu, and Andy Wijaya for making this trip flawless. You guys had made me understood the real meaning of friendship. I love you guys to the bones. Thank you!!

Byeeeeeeee!! Have a nice summer holiday guys!

morose + moronic = me

Erghhhhh I feel like pouring out my thoughts on twitter but twitter is very public and everyone will immediately comment on it and I will be ashamed. Blah blah blah. Don't bother to read because I write nonsense here. :)

Seriously I am very fed up now. I feel like burning all my maths books, papers and every single thing related to maths. I've tried so hard to like this subject but the more I tried, the more I got frustrated. So today was maths exam. My friend told me that the questions would be easy to solve and 80% of the questions were taken from pm. He also told me that plus class students wouldn't fail it. Plus students who score lower than 90 are considered idiotic (paice in hokkian) and regular students who score lower than 75 are idiotic. HAHA. Eh not funny K? I was so happy and thankful that time. I thought, "Wow this is my last chance to cover up my previous score. Gotta do my best." Here comes the monster day. Having arrived at school and gathered at canteen as usual with classmates, my confident level drastically dropped, idk why. I became a worrywart and I started imagining that I'd fail the test. During the test, I could solve most of the questions easily. Yes ofc I got some troubles solving some hardcore questions. But at least I was confident and sure that this time I wouldn't fail. Test was over and we checked our answers with friends. How disappointing, I chose so many wrong answers. Idk what struck me on exam room til I made so manyyyy mistakes ergh, I am paice kuadrat! Everyone's happy today, esp my classmates. They passed maths exam with flying colours, oh how envy :(

I'm just unable to understand myself. The previous maths test was also very easy, but I was so careless and made dumb mistakes. This time also. What's up with me seriously? Am I that dumb? Stressed out. Ok I just don't want to care about it now. I really wanna graduate from high school soon and bid farewell to maths like for good. I am so not gonna take any major related to maths later on uni!

Being told to love maths is like telling a dolphin to climb the highest mountain. Lol sounds exaggerating, a lot.

Anyway...............................
3 days left and we will be having farewell party with my buddies somewhere out from town! Woohoooooooo, can't wait xx